I will not apologize for being real in a world where being real only gets you so far.
I will not apologize for cutting certain people out of my life no matter how long I have known them, how close we were or even if we are related.If you are going to judge me, bring me down or continuously disappoint me, then you deserve to be dropped and maybe punched in the face.
I will not apologize for not responding to your text message after going months without hearing from you. If you don’t have more time for me then I don’t have any time for you.
I will not apologize for posting the quote or song or article that you thought was about you, I will however say that you need to get over yourself.
I will not apologize for not pouring my heart out to you like I used to, because one way or another you held it against me, and one way or another I realized that you are not someone I want to pour my heart out to.
I will not apologize for deciding not to love you anymore,because when I did…..well let’s not go there!
I will not apologize for neglecting your opinion, because it baffles me how you are suddenly so interested and concerned about my life after disappearing for years when I REALLY needed your interest and concern! Hypocrisy is not my thing!
I will not apologize for the painful things I said to you,because if you can say it, why can’t I?
I will not apologize for trusting all the wrong people,because in trusting them I learned that some people may seem to want all the best for you, but when you get it, they want to take it away.
I will not apologize for celebrating even if there is nothing to celebrate, because unlike you I don’t think fun should be tied to certain occasions, people, achievements or materials.
I will not apologize for not keeping things inside anymore,because in trying to be “compassionate & understanding” you were being “selfish & inconsiderate”
I will not apologize for my decisions that you so openly disapprove of, because when I look at you, I also so openly disapprove of you.
I will not apologize for calling you out on your lies,because if you think for one second that I forgot what you said or what you did.. Every day I will remind you.
I will not apologize for being so “spoiled” as you may say,because I decided it’s better not to converse with someone who takes things at face value.
I will not apologize for putting myself first, because let’s face it..Someone had to.
Yes I am 26. I am still learning what matters, who matters,and which direction I want to take and who I really want to be, and I will NOT apologize for it!
So don’t blame me for turning my back on you and walking away.
I don’t have a home here and I don’t have a home there
We fight all the time, we are definitely not on the same page anymore
I’m tired of all the pain, I’ve been aching for way too long since you’ve been gone.
And I’m not ready to ache anymore especially because of you
So bear with me when I emotionally decide to leave and go back home to where I always found someone when you were gone
After all a smile is all I want sometimes because I’ve cried for so long all because of you but it all dried up when I saw you and realized how much I didn’t miss you!
Very sensitive, very aware!
What intrigues me most about people; is the different characters they wear! You see how they go about their daily lives and how they interact with one another, but then you see them closely and get a chance to talk to them on a deeper level and this where you really get to SEE the person, look into them, and look through them! Then you will find how your judgment, opinion, and impression or whatever you wanna call it, was just all wrong!
It really does intrigue me, when I talk to people and see a different, beautiful version of them, a side of them that I know they do not want to reveal to the rest of the world. It is like they are constantly struggling to suppress their true identity in search of something more conforming; more common, more “pragmatic”. It baffles me and it upsets me at the same time, because I know that specific person I had the most beautiful conversation with, will wake up the next day, sober up and get back to being whoever the day deems him/her to be.
In people; I find magic, magic in their differences, magic in their similarities, magic in their vulnerabilities, and magic in their ability to wake up every day and pretend to be someone else! I find magic in my relationships with people, even if it is just for a couple of hours, I look through people, I SEE them, I READ them, I ACCEPT them! I value such moments, I appreciate these moments, I believe in the power of such moments. Tomorrow though, I will wake up and pretend that I don’t know them. Isn’t this how it works?
To realize the value of ONE MONTH,
ask a mother who gave birth to a premature baby.
To realize the value of ONE WEEK,
ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.
To realize the value of ONE HOUR,
ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.
To realize the value of ONE MINUTE,
ask a person who missed the train.
To realize the value of ONE SECOND,
ask a person who just avoided an accident.
To realize the value of ONE MILLISECOND,
ask the person who won a silver medal in the Olympics.
Treasure every moment that you have!
Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift.
That’s why it’s called the present!
I can see how much she means to him. The way he looks at her, the way he looks after her, the way he protects her and the way he looks at guys who like her. The way he aches when they fight, the way he lightens up when they make up, and the way his eyes just keeps following her every where she goes.
I see how much he needs her and how mush he misses her, I also see how much she desires him playing with his heart and his mind like a pro, after all she knows him best, she knows his strengths and weaknesses. He always said that he can tell what she’s thinking by just one look and this is how she manages to get away with anything because she knows she’s special, that no matter what she does, he will always forgive her!
I see how he holds her, and how he hugs her, I see how much memories and history they have together. I see it all, so clearly, so surely, but he doesn’t see it. He is so busy looking at her!